[ I Smell Like The Meeting Room ]

For I just spent my whole Monday in there -_-"



And somehow I was glad to be cooped inside, far from the PC or else I would go on rambling on what a great weekend I had.

Oh yeah wo yeah, this crybaby got to go back home juga wokeh?
Haha.

On Friday evening, wat muka lima belas sen to my colleague, yang sama-sama kene datang kerja on weekend tu and somehow plead a little that I have to go home that day juga.

It must have been the red bump on my forehead that he was afraid of, that he didn't have to think twice to say he'll cover my work this weekend.
I said no need to cover, I'll just come on Sunday if I have to.
He said no need.
And he shoo-ed me off from the office and wished me a safe journey home.

Woohoo, rasa happy ya amat Tuhan je la yang tahu.
Weekend with the family!
Weekend with Umie & Ayah!!
Kenapakah Along excited begini?

Maybe I was determined to make something different between us, maybe maybe.
:)

So yeah, I was purely contented.
Despite something came up between Jenn and I, and I had to go back to KJ feeling a bit cranky with her.

Then it came to my senses that it must be the fact that she'll be off to Medan soon and I was just messing around with her, you know just to have THAT sister fight, face pulling and annoying each other's wit walhal sehari sebelum tuh bukan main lagi shopping kasut baju bersama.

HAIH.




I guess this is where I say to myself - "You can't win everything, long."

I may had a great weekend with Umie & Ayah but to leave home without saying goodbye to Jenn was somehow, entah.
I didn't know why I did that.
I was just upset.

She has been a huge help since she came home and I rather taken her for granted whenever she's around.
Yelah, semuanya - "Alang kan tengah cuti, mintak tolong dia lah." where all this while it would be "Along kan ada, biar Along buat."

Hmm, I know she do mind sometimes but maybe sebab respectkan Umie Ayah dan takut dengan bump besar di muka Along menjadi lagi besar, dia diamkan saja.

While she should be lazing around, going holidays and catching up with her Malaysian friends, she stayed at home helping Umie and Ayah around, taking care of adik-adik for me while I hm, berfoya-foya dengan teman.

I know I'd never say thank you much to her for all that she'd done, especially the part where she is now in her third year of doing Medicine ( two years more, lang!!) in USU, a place that is so far off glamorous than Ireland or Russia but she's there, surviving everyday with whatever she is able just to make us proud.

Yang senang cakap kembang hidung - "Adik saya doktor." ha, ni la kakaknya.
Yang belajar tunggang terbalik nya dia.
T_____T

I just hope she gets to read this and realised how I hate being upset with her or how I cry after my prayers thinking how I can't buy her things that she wants.

Or the fact I didn't spend much time with her is not because I don't care.




I just don't know how to.


I planned a lot, this and that, tapi yang jadinya the other way round.
More to the unexpected ones, which rarely happens.


:(



Kenapa emosi sangat akhir-akhir ni?
Bukan sebab PMS, bukan sebab takde teman lelaki.
Dan Along harap ini bukan petanda Along akan mati dulu.



*texting Sorry to her number*